Monday, December 31, 2012

And Here We Are...

Good afternoon readers!  Today marks the end of this year!  Some things that have happened to me this year are:

  • I Lived,
  • I went to San Antonio, where I met some of my closest companions,
  • I got experience in Massage Therapy,
  • I got experience in the building of awesome subs,
  • I came back to Cleveland, where on Christmas I was kicked out of a car and stranded downtown, where I currently live.
  • I've had many opportunities to shake my head about others and did not take them, and
  • I've made "making my presence known" more of a daily occurrence.
This next year, I will be letting you know about what I have been learning about the Mind!!!!

To keep anonymous the parties involved in companionship with me for obvious reasons, I will not share "everything" talked OR experienced with each party, but you will be filled in on what you need in due time.

Other than that, I will continue my work to earn the title of "Hottest Rapper Alive," because I already am.  Before I wish you well, I will leave you with some words of wisdom:

"Be careful how you talk to people; one person may hold the key to your salvation!"

Alright ya'll.  Be safe this holiday, don't make it a funeral!  Much love, and see you on the other side of the Sun's rotation about the Earth!

-Xavier Direll Willis

Friday, December 28, 2012


Hello again and Happy Holidays to all!

I got into an altercation with my mother on Christmas, and we had to separate... I needed my space, and the best thing I could do was go to the homeless shelter again.  I'll be able to do all I need to do in terms of going back home, but I need to do it on my own this time.  My outlook on life is good though; I have to watch out for these guys there though, because they will try to get anything they can, anyway they can.  I won't let anything happen to you though, my dear readers!  I will let someone get close enough to recognize me and anything after that will come back to me.  Unless you are one who wants to be recognized, you are free to make that decision.

But don't fret -- I will be getting some money, and I'm working to earn more;  I have to start somewhere, right?  Well I am getting ready.  Let's see how this works out:

I see as I read.  When I see, I'm beating that I'm reading. When I'm beating, You need to C... A-S-H, most kids play as fakes to Bake or Make my cake...
Who they playin'?  I've had fights at night, MTV after dark that night, I was there when kids couldn't share.  I took that dare and nothing compared!
It's just poetry, I know you wanna flow with me.
It's so easy to be appeasing! When you're meeting me you'll be beating, and when you're beating, all you'll be is reading feelings, so put some cash in my hands when you get the chance to see me!

That's all for now... I'll be going to the bars tonight to get some cash for this "live" work!  I'll remember my niggas forever...


Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Back to Normalcy... For Now

Hello readers!

I hope you all had a very merry Christmas, for those of you who believe.  I have started to change my beliefs, because my spirit is guiding me to a time before Jesus came to Earth over a thousand years ago.  I am led to believe that there is much more history than there is in the Holy Bible, and although I believe in the Bible, there seems to be some missing information that had yet to be discovered while the book was written.

Don't get me wrong; I do believe that Jesus is the son of God [;)], and I believe that eternal salvation is only possible through him, but what if you know God directly?  Does this mean that by knowing God the Father, His son, and the Holy Spirit directly we will be able to reach the Kingdom of Heaven?  I believe so!

There is an unlimited amount of knowledge held by God (or whatever power you believe in) that most of us will never know, but to know that through him our minds will be safe puts me at ease.

With that being "written,"  I will tell you that He has given me the honor of uncovering the workings of the mind (or brain, whatever you want to call it).  I will be that man to give you some insight in some of my upcoming posts, but I will help you get to a place where you can understand why some people do some things they do, how you will be able to break bad habits (that are held by you or even OTHERS), and how you will be able to focus better through life, because you will be able to gain more focus just by communicating with me!  Check me out later.


Saturday, December 22, 2012

Today is a Good Day!

December 22, 2012... think about that day for a moment.

Think of a day where trees sing, birds walk, squirrels burst with energy, and even the skunks don't stink.

Now return to your current state.  You are filled with energy too, and the people you know want to experience you at your very Best!

(Usually, when you read capitalized words in my writing, it is because I am putting emphasis on that word, as I would if I were speaking to you, or they are Proper in their parts of speech. 
There's nothing wrong with a writer developing their writing style!)

I just ran into two people wearing Rocawaear coats and jackets.  I checked it out, and, as I saw him turn to check his surroundings, I felt myself checking my surroundings at the same time!  I am excited that I "met" at the right time, and that I am not one of those who feel the need to be accepted by Roc Nation.  Either you associate yourself with us or you don't!

As I look back at this week, it's gotten better along the way.  I was Homeless and Phoneless, remember?!  I went home the next morning.  It's better to be home than to live in a shelter, believe me.  I had an old OP that my great Aunt gave me, so I'll at least be able to keep in touch with those with whom I need to communicate via voice with, AND I found my iPod Touch, so I have SOME music I can listen to.. I'm bumping "The Blueprint III," "Tha Carter IV," and "Take Care."  I'll meet them, don't worry.

I also listen to some books on tape; self-help books, lectures, and other educational material.
I do need to go though, because I am off to enjoy the rest of my day/evening!


Friday, December 21, 2012

More Rhymes

Stayin' on top, higher than the average nigga
If you wonder about life then just ask ya nigga
X-Dash-One, I might suprise ya
Heading the game to start an uprising
To get you to be the best you can be
From the C-L-E and even goin' overseas
Like when I met Jordana, hot
5'6" tater that I would love to tot
Brightest niggas in the crowd, we ain't hard to spot
I came back to the land
Better than before so if you can't stand
Me now than you could before
You'll have to wait forever before you get that chance again.


Treat A Lady Right!

I was watching 106 & Park, and came in on a conversation about what I think was how men should view women based on how they present themselves.  So the one guy is all relaxed and laid out on the "couch" while saying that a woman should be treated how she dresses, and that she won't get any respect if she gives "it" up on the first night!

I sure don't believe that all women should be diserespected if they sleep with someone the first night they meet, but she should be watched closely, especially if she is someone who you plan to spend the evening with for an intimate encounter... in fact, one should keep a keen eye on whoever he or she chooses to "mate" with.

Some men fake it to get a woman in bed for the night (the first night they meet), and as an attempt to save face, they turn their back on the woman, showing disrespect just as fast (or even faster) as they came up talking game to her.  If he stayed in his own zone instead of trying to compete with others to be with a woman he lacks the know-how to keep, he wouldn't sleep with the woman, but what about when the woman denies him?  Does he disrespect her anyway to save face from her denial?  He might, but he'd be wrong anyway.  Just as he yearns for respect when he enters the room, so should a woman respect herself enough that she knows her place in the world; for by knowing this, she knows who to look for and who to look "out" for.

For you gentlemen, stay in your lane.  Every man isn't designed to sleep with a bunch of women.  you have your alphas and your gammas, your reds and your blues, your yin and your yang (if you will).  Some men are better equipped to handle more than one woman, and if you don't think you are, then you should stick to the plan of being with one woman.  Those that can handle multiple women have entered "Females 101" and it is a simple course, should you decide to take it.

Love a woman, respect a woman for what she has, and protect a woman from harm.  Be a real man for you women!

And for you women, be more discretionary when looking for your men... control your urges (Men, as well!)! :)


Thursday, December 20, 2012

Just a Few Rhymes...

...for the time that I'm living in now.  Based on the ground, but for some reason I had to get under; now I own the core and all my haters stay under.

Don't think that I won't come to rescue those who can't get by when others test the "fresh" you.  I don't exaggerate unless the situation warrants it, I'm over it.  From now until as far as time can tell, or see; I bring you what you want as soon as you order it!

So now, it's time to get paid, find a chick, get laid; then we go out together and find a way to get paid (again); if you're not looking for a win then you'll hear me as I blow past you in the wind. End.

Believe and Achieve

Good afternoon!

I am excited about life and what it has to offer, and I would like to extend some of this excitement to you!  These days, luck doesn't play much of a role in my life; I have to rely on my skills in order to get where I'm going.  I love the people with whom I come in contact with, and I strive to help us both grow so we can get to where we're heading, while overcoming the obstascles.

I just got back from an interview, and it seemed to me that the interviewer really liked me!  I feel like I will get this job, and I will work as much as I can and even after I "succeed!"  I want those that believe in me to reach success as well; and when I survive with the truth, how could you not?

Believe, and Achieve.

I want YOU to have the confidence to achieve what you believe you can achieve, without the need to ask me if you can begin.  I want you to understand what you're sensing, and be sure, and be clear to all those whom you communicate with.  This is possible by paying attention to what is coming in your direction, and staying focused enough to a point in time where you may respond with that information still staying clear with you!

I'm off for now, check me out later.


Tuesday, December 18, 2012

What We Need

Hello, everyone.  I hope you are having a beautiful day, taking life by its' chargers and riding on the beautiful journey you have in front of you.

I want to talk about some of the most recent current events (i.e. Newtown Shooting, the shooting after the high-speed chase through Cleveland, Aurora shooting, and WV shooting), but I don't know where to begin.  It's not so much about the events themselves that I want to talk about, but rather the state of mind each assailant was in that led them to the deplorable actions they committed in this great country called the United States of America.  We are in a country where capitalism reigns supreme; where we are to go out and chase that dollar, and make that dollar into more dollars, THEN go somewhere and spend those dollars.  Me myself, I yearn to earn, but my hustle has been held down for so long, it isn't held down anymore.  Back to the topic-at-hand...

Most of the assailants of the past few massacres are said to have had a mental illness, and they are supposed to be taking medication to keep the chemicals in their brains balanced.  But how can a brain be balanced when all you know about a person is what they tell you?  The mind is like the rest of the human body; one faces consequences (good and bad) from what they think, and from one way they react to certain language (or even someone else's body language) can very well tell that person's future -- that is, to say that if you say something to someone and they react in a certain way, it is safe to assume that that person may react the same way to the same type of information given to them at a later date, unless that person is adept enough to adapt to what the next situation may be.

This means we have an opportunity to find out what has to be said in order for someone to react a certain way (thus proving "how" someone is in any given situation) in a certain place, in a certain time.  This is a group effort.  If you keep telling someone they are not going to amount to anything in life, that person is going to succeed because they did not believe what these people told them, or they will fail because they believed that they would not amount to anything.  Either way, when it is "test time," that person will react in a certain way, either moving closer to or farther away from achieving their goal, and if that person rubs their chin, wipes above their brow, scratches their head, brushes the "dirt off their shoulder," grabs in their genital region, or doesn't even bat an eye, no matter which one of these (or those not mentioned) nonverbal cues that person does, means something specific.

With this information, we will be able to tell what someone is thinking, because they would broadcast that thought out "Somewhere."  I would get upset if someone told me that they couldn't hear my thoughts, when I hear my thought patterns being thought out almost on a daily basis; but I can think positively and figure out new ways to get people to believe me, and that may be by proving what I do, day in and day out.  I have time to get better, trust me.  Until then, think about this:

People have been cut open all throughout life (by people in the medical profession) to stay healthy, but in the profession of psychology and psychiatry, there have not been many breakthroughs... can anyone tell me why?  Tell me why the best solution they can come up with for someone with a mental illness is to have them take medication for the rest of their life?  That just doesn't sit well with me, because I can talk to someone and have them reverse the harm they would cause to themselves or others without the use of medication.  If you can too, let me know.. but until then, think your Best!


Friday, December 14, 2012

Where I am today.

Where do I turn?

I'm phoneless, homeless, and still pump out the most Shit!

So when can a guy like me get some cheddar? Right then, I laised it. I can't be heinous when the paper is at my latest! So what's stopping me from getting me some? It might have been the sun; I gotta get one so sometime I have my fun! I want to run. I do it for the calisthenics, to let you know we winnin', so when we get this cash, we can spend it!

I play on Big paper, big money, not funny; no, honey. Catch me when you see me and it's sunny, the only thing you'll be able to say after is that one meet. One meets, one meeted, it's the same thing.

Had to let that one breathe. Just to let you know I am X-One and I am the Hottest! All these people are talking about Xavier and He's the only one who seems to be getting ahead! I know Jigga has His eyes on Him... let Him Pay the Man!

I'm told that I need to save, but where is the line between saving my money now and buying what I need now? Look, I know where you're playing, but are you showing me the money? When you can do that, peel me off a rack or two. We all know that Xavier is playing, and I'm the first one to show you when He makes it!

If you can see it in a thought, you can see it in real life.

Ask me.... I have Answers!

And for a little something for you off the top of the dome:

So I, tip you off with the ringer, no blinger needed... I grew up in the time that we could speak through beepers... Jeepers Creepers, at the top of the spot, I had a shot, so it was either get mopped or bring a speaker.
Bumpin' Sisqo near the wrestling mats, Dynasty came in at a close second. Didn't have time for the first, so I stayed with the second, and I was livin' how I was steppin'.

You say I talk when I rap, but it's just my sentences! If you want me to start you up with that Bumpin' Shit, then I suggest you cough up some bucks!


Xavier Direll Willis

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

To Keep Living...


           I have been living on this earth for 25 1/2 years, and the most recent complication in life I have discovered is August 28, 1963:  The day Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. gave his famous "I Have A Dream" speech.  I caught some mistakes that Dr. King made during his speech that, if he did not make them, he may still be living today.  The mistakes did not only lie with Dr. King, but also with his closest supporters!  In this post, I will point out these nuances, that, if caught today, will prolong your lives as well!  And now, I present:

To Keep Living...

           Twoscore and nine years after Martin Luther King Jr.'s "I Have A Dream" speech, it seems like we are still behind in the way we live our lives.

Youtube Link: "I Have A Dream"

          Today, I watched Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.'s speech entitled, "I Have A Dream" in its' entirety, and I was mostly amazed at how his listeners did not yet understand what he was talking about. Within the first 5 minutes, the Doctor said (and I paraphrase), "They [Government] has continued to write us [African Americans] bad checks, and they have come back marked 'Insufficient Funds.'"  Did you hear the audience applaud?  Why were they clapping?  Take note of how many times the crowd clapped and gave praise to the most pertinent points that Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. made throughout his whole speech.  Also, there were slight clues that you could see the Doctor try to make, but because the crowd was not with him on what he was thinking as he was talking, they were unable to live in the moment that the Doctor was living in.  I believe that because of this, there were not enough people available to protect him at the time of his assassination.

          Another nuance I noticed while watching this speech, is that Dr. Martin Luther King did not tell his audience what to do while he was talking.  They were clapping at some of the wrong times, they weren't fully paying attention to what he was saying, and they did not come to his aid when he was in trouble!  You can see the Doctor standing up straighter to some of his points, shunning what turned out to be a threat away, and not checking back with his crew for some of his points.  He placed so much importance on what he was saying, that he forgot to look out for his own "out," which was that he was the man giving the speech.
If I were Dr. King, I would have ad-libbed a bit, telling the audience that they should listen, or to quiet down; even if I had to resort to telling them to "shut up," I would have done it in the "love of my listeners."

         The last thing I would have done if I were giving the speech is to talk about what we wanted to see, not what was already there.  In talking to large groups about the positive things we would like to see, it shows that they will come sooner!  Some examples of what I would have said are as follows:

"We should ALL be equal, as it says in the Constitution, 'ALL Men are Created EQUAL!'"

"Our creative protests should make us all grow!"

He says that our destinies should be tied together, and our freedoms are bound together, and that we should not walk alone, but what if he said that we should "walk together?"

I hope that this will meet your eyes, and that you will see as I see, so that we may ALL be free!  I am out of time today, but check me later.



Livin on the top / my credentials should all speak for themselves / You know I stay meeting them 12s/ workin my situation so I handle some L's / Happy Hannakuh Merry Christmas, I'm stockin' up like, "Elves"

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

The N-Word


eXtraordinary Applications of Valued Information Enforced Regularly

Hello, I'm Xavier. I'm a 25 year old male from Cleveland, Ohio. You might be wondering what the acronym above means. Basically, if you Apply the Extraordinary Valuable Information that I'm teaching, or just look at everything with an open mind and Enforce it Regularly, you will be able to have a care-free life in addition to getting the things you need to get done completed. It's actually a pretty good concept if you think about it; Get the things out of the way that you NEED to do, so that you have all the time in the world to do the things you WANT to do. As a young person, I'm lucky to realize how the real world works at such an early age. Although a lot of people may have a better edge on life than I have, I carefully planned out the easiest way to go through life and be happy. With that said, let me tell you my train of thinking: In order to do the things I want to do, I must first do the things that need to get done. I also get enjoyment out of everything life has to offer (What's the point of doing something if you don't want to do it, or if you aren't getting anything out of it?). So with that said, even if I don't want to do something, I do it anyway because I want to get to doing the things I want to do! It deals with everything... listening to your parents' advice, going to work, doing homework/schoolwork/studying, etc. Go with the flow. Don't Assume, because you'll make an ass out of "U" and me. If you think you can, you will. If you try, you will succeed. The reasons these phrases have stuck over the years is because they all hold true and people have true life experiences to back it up.

Circa 2006, some friends and I made some discoveries about the N-Word.  You know what I'm talking about, whether I say nigga or nigger; it all sounds bad.  But before you start thinking about the bad that word has done, think about the best way it can be used to keep from offending someone, or even showing endearment to another person.

 It works pretty well for me. Another thing I'd like to attribute my success to is the dreaded "N-word." Yeah, it's deemed "offensive" by some, meaningless by others. But when used the right way, it can be very powerful, and helpful! Let me start off by just getting it clear. I'm black, and I use the word nigger. I use it for a sense of humor, and for self-improvement. I'm not offended by it, but it depends on who says it. Anyone from the outside looks at it as a racist term, just because black people are usually the only ones who use it, and white people who don't know about the word usually get their ass kicked, right? Let me tell you why, if you didn't know: The word "Nigger" has infinite meanings. I'll lay out the most common ones here:



Before the word was deemed to only talk about black people, the word Nigger was meant to mean ignorant. Although it can mean ignorant, it can also mean stupid, annoying, lazy, scandalous, etc.; anything that can be classified as a "niggerish" tendency.

Example: Friend says to another friend, "You dumb nigger, you skipped your 9:30 am chiropractor's appointment and didn't call them. Now it's 6:30 pm and the office is closed."

See how the word nigger is used? The person who missed the appointment doesn't get offended that his friend called him a nigger, though he looks at himself and thinks about what he did and puts forth the effort not to do it again. (from·ger —Usage note The term nigger is now probably the most offensive word in English. Its degree of offensiveness has increased markedly in recent years, although it has been used in a derogatory manner since at least the Revolutionary War. Definitions 1a, 1b, and 2 represent meanings that are deeply disparaging and are used when the speaker deliberately wishes to cause great offense. Definition 1a, however, is sometimes used among African-Americans in a neutral or familiar way. Definition 3 is not normally considered disparaging—as in “The Irish are the niggers of Europe” from Roddy Doyle's The Commitments—but the other uses are considered contemptuous and hostile. –noun 1.Slang: Extremely Disparaging and Offensive. a.a black person. b.a member of any dark-skinned people. 2.Slang: Extremely Disparaging and Offensive. a person of any race or origin regarded as contemptible, inferior, ignorant, etc. 3.a victim of prejudice similar to that suffered by blacks; a person who is economically, politically, or socially disenfranchised. Example: A white person says to a black person: "You dirty nigger!" "Why am I a nigger?" "Because you're black, why don't you go back to Africa?" *Punch in the face* This is obviously used as a racist term and is just like calling anyone a Gook, Spic, Kike, etc. It's NOT tolerated and this is the term that people get their "asses kicked" over, for lack of a better term. I don't agree with this and don't know why anyone should. Yes, it was used in the past and came to be one of the most offensive words in the english language, but if nobody thinks that way, wouldn't it be a de-sensitized word?



Often used as a term of endearment, to a friend. Can be replaced with other words, such as pal, buddy, friend, etc.

Example: A friend (doesn't matter what race) says to another friend (doesn't matter what race): "Whats up nigga?" "Not much man, just chillin."

See how it's used here? This is the way you see on tv shows, in real life, and hear in songs. It's just a word. It rolls off the tongue, just as if you were saying, "What's up buddy?" or "What's up pal?". There's also another use of the word "nigga", just like the first definition of the word "nigger." The only difference is, it's used as a term of hostility. Example: A friend accidentally breaks another friend's cd: "Dumb ass nigga, you broke my shit!" Now wait! Don't go and use that word yet.. unless you can catch on quickly enough now, I'd consult your closest African-American friend and ask him/her how they feel about it.  You will find that a discussion will open up on the floor and your friend may have something to say about the newly "opened" word you asked about!

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